I feel...

Dirty, used, broken, annoying, stupid, dark, sad, lonely, scared...I wish I knew how to control such emotions. It would come in handy quite often. Social situations would be much easier for me to tackle.

I had a really bad dream last night. He was there in my bed, lying on his side looking at me, he said he was glad he sold me. I blinked and he was gone. I had just fallen asleep again when the phone started ringing. I got up and answered it. It was her this time. She said I was worthless and that I would be better off dead. she said that I was dirty and that nobody would ever love me. I blacked out.

Brei must've been out because my head was fuzzy and there was blood on the floor. I had hit my head on the counter top when I fell. I stood up and clicked the redial button on the phone. It was my therapist and she kept saying that she was sorry. I don't know why. Then again, I don't usually understand human interactions.

Dif-tor heh smusma

Sylar

Vacations

My therapist is on vacation and it sucks. I don't know who to ask about things. I don't trust just anybody with these kinds of questions but I'm getting desperate. It scares me.

stupid.

I messed it up. Again. She's going to hate me forever.