Dirty, used, broken, annoying, stupid, dark, sad, lonely, scared...I wish I knew how to control such emotions. It would come in handy quite often. Social situations would be much easier for me to tackle.
I had a really bad dream last night. He was there in my bed, lying on his side looking at me, he said he was glad he sold me. I blinked and he was gone. I had just fallen asleep again when the phone started ringing. I got up and answered it. It was her this time. She said I was worthless and that I would be better off dead. she said that I was dirty and that nobody would ever love me. I blacked out.
Brei must've been out because my head was fuzzy and there was blood on the floor. I had hit my head on the counter top when I fell. I stood up and clicked the redial button on the phone. It was my therapist and she kept saying that she was sorry. I don't know why. Then again, I don't usually understand human interactions.
Dif-tor heh smusma
Sylar
Yes, I know the dream doesn't sound all that bad and I'm sure you've had worse dreams (so have I) but this isn't a competition. I can't describe things very well so sorry if it doesn't sound as bad as it felt to me.
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